March 8th 2016 #2

Oh and family, family is also not a given. Everything I thought I knew about the world was wrong. 

March 8th 2016

I've come to the realization that I won't be someone great, or do something great. I have also realized that having friends is not a given, and I don't think I will go through life having any. I should have appreciated the ones I had so long ago. This is all my fault.

February 27th 2016

About a week ago I was watching Masterchef Canada and this girl on the show said "I never thought I'd be someone special, but now I'm thinking maybe I will be." It hit me pretty hard, because I have the opposite problem. I always thought I'd be someone/something special but in that moment I realized I never will be. It's pretty devastating to figure out that everything you ever wanted isn't going to happen.

Feb 21 2016

Took my plugs out.

I feel sad

blue

run down

tired

alone

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Remember that fleeting moment?

November 6th 2015

"Motherhood is a choice you make everyday, to put someone else's happiness and well-being ahead of your own, to teach the hard lessons, to do the right thing even when you're not sure what the right thing is...and to forgive yourself, over and over again, for doing everything wrong."
―Donna Ball, At Home on Ladybug Farm